Thinking about future

Too much things to think about.. Work? Future? Study civil engineering for 7 years but still hard to get the job. Pointless?

I'm currently waiting for my interview result. Been wondering should I call the office to follow up my interview result? Yes but I need to wait for one more week. Been stressing so much thinking about those stuffs. Let say if I don't get the job (only God knows deep in my heart I want the job even as an Assistant Engineer.. i don't care as long as it is still in the line), then I'll be upset. Try not to hoping so much but it's hard. After all, who doesn't want to work with government.

To end this teka teki, I will call them next week. I will not call them this week because I don't want to look desperate although I'?m desperately need the job!

Dear God, please.. 😪😔 it ain't easy to work in private sector. I know knowledge and working experience is IMPORTANT but from my point of view, if your working experience doesn't related to what your employer wants for their organisation then if you are lucky enough being opted for the job position, I bet you will still need to start from zero! Learn new thing again.. If you're currently involved in road and housing projects then you also need to start from the beginning to study the Water projects since this organization is mainly operating the water pipeline and anything related to water distribution.

I hope I will receive a GOOD NEWS from them soon! Let the news be my Christmas present or New Year 2018 present. Otherwise I need to find other jobs. And.. Next week I'm gonna have my driving test. Hopefully I'll pass the test! 🙏

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Slowly this awful feeling and thoughts will eventually kill me inside.

My mind is going to explode