Feel a bit depressed

My birthday is just around the corner. No, I don't celebrate it this year and for many years to come because cake is too expensive nowadays. Hey does cake really important for every birthdays? I don't think so. So I'll just thank god for what He did to me all this time. He's great right. Thanks Him for keeping me alive until my birthday.

I have no idea what happened to me these few days. I feel like going to lock myself in the room and never going out again. Feel like wanted to cry but at the same time don't feel tears will come out because it's not the right time after all. I feel bad for myself for cannot do anything to help lifting my mother's burden. I spend too much on TV, food, sleep and I know it's unhealthy lifestyle. Depressed for what? For all of these.

I need someone to tell me this,

Everything will be fine, no worries dear, everything will be fine. You're awesome and no one can be just like you. You're the best among the best and if not, you're the best dear. Don't worry. That happy times will come to you itself. That happy times hasn't reach yet. Just be a little bit patient. 

To be honest, I need my friends, my old best friends. Guys, we really need to gather and vent everything. I miss you guys tremendously. Sorry for keep posting depressed posts. Promise will be happy again although I don't know when. God's will.